Saturday, August 02, 2008

So many things to do...

Eleven months and a few days... that's how old my son is. In twenty-nine days my son will be a year old.

I've neglected my blog... and I'm sorry for that, but to be honest it was so much easier to write when things were not quite right. Now that I reached what I was striving for - to have a child, well I find I can't complain. It's not that I don't have things to complain about it is more that it is hard for me to do so.

I could gripe about work, about lack of sleep, lack of labido, etc - but really I am happy and that is something I can not find in my heart to complain about. There are too many things to do for me to take a moment and say get a load of this. My internet usage has significantly decreased as my son's mobility has increased. It's quite comical if you think about it because a year ago I thought I would have all these wonderful things to say, but really it's hard for me to not make this into a mommy blog and I'm not sure I want to. I'm not in the trenches anymore... I'm off the island and while infertility still is a part of who I am, it's just a bit different now and I haven't quite reconciled how to combine the two worlds... being a mom and being infertile.

I've learned something though... being open about my struggles has allowed others to be open. Coworkers who struggle or are just starting to navigate the path of infertility can talk to me about clomid, injectables, etc and I'm able to be there for them in a way that those who had no difficulty are not. That's the part that matters. I can listen and say I've been there before... maybe it was a bit different than the place you are at right now, but I do understand...


DD said...

I find it incredulous that N.D. (and so many other lovely babies) are turning, or have turned, a year old!

I think being there in real life, and having your blog, is so important. Isn't helping others why we keep coming back, even if rarely?

DinosaurD said...

I understand where you're at with your blog - it's why I stopped posting myself. But as I've said before...the rest of you are not allowed to stop.
Okay, I know I can't force you and I do appreciate the fact that enjoying your son has priority over blogging.
You know that you're on my feeds and whenever you do post I'll always read (even if it's months or heaven forbid, years between posts).
I'm so happy for you and D that you made it out the other side with Squeaker (do you still call him that)?
Hugs and Kisses to Ernie.