Sunday, December 31, 2006

Year in Review

A year in review... I had hopes of putting together a really good post, however puppies have been requiring lots of cuddling... I had my first New Year's Eve date with D and we had a lovely time out and about... we are currently waiting to ring in the new year with the 10 mongrels. So this was hastily put together, but the gist is there... this year has sucked on a lot of levels and been kind in a few. My hope is that the coming year will be kindler, and maybe even a bit gentler. I think the theme of our year was - pregnant, but not so fast as that's a shitty beta.

January 2006 - finds us pregnant... oops not so fast - spotting starts and well things go down hill from there... at least we have an appt with the RE to look forward to... Phone call from RE's NP who says "congratulations!" My response of what's the number kind of throws her and then when I say son-of-a-bitch when she tells me the number sets her back a bit... Then she reads my files... whoops - anxiety level is raised as the words ectopic are mentioned... fear of a battery acid shot to the ass is fortunately did not have to occur.

February 2006 - finds us having an HSG - all clear, starting injectables - fun times... D stabs himself while attempting to take a cap off a needle...

March 2006 - finds us with another chemical pregnancy to deal with and another round of injectables... One year anniversary of trying to conceive... as well as 2 year anniversary of my dad's death.

April 2006 - finds us being told not pregnant beta of 5, then after no period and no progesterone positive digital test... beta of 25 and my progesterone dependent ass starts bleeding... another chemical pregnancy and told to have a "rest" cycle - done under bitter duress

May 2006 - "Rest" my ass - yeah that didn't happen... Oh my doubling betas from that rest cycle and well only minimal spotting lets see where this goes...

June 2006 - First u/s doesn't show a heartbeat come back a week later on the anniversary of our d & c/ectopic and of course 1 day before my birthday - still no heartbeat... D & C number 2 performed a week later... D gets a job near our home and so he'll be living with me full time and no more commuting back and forth to the other side of the state and I get a position up in the PICU - So 2 out of 3 not bad. D takes care of me and posts on my blog to update everyone.

July 2006 - D starts his new job and we start yet another round of injectables... find out the new insurance doesn't cover the meds and D takes a pay cut for the new job and well that blows.

August 2006 - Chemical pregnancy and another round of injectables add progesterone in oil to the mix... D becomes a pro at injections. I love my job... D loves his job...

September 2006 - Another chemical pregnancy another round of injectables - 2 year anniversary of our marriage... D finds out he's supposed to be paid a different wage than what he was being paid and is back paid the wages... woohoo... insurance no longer going to be accepted at RE's office.

October 2006 - D starts working days and timed intercourse goes out the window... Another round of injectables starts add estrace to the mix of gonal-f and PIO... fun times. Adopt a dog named Megan and we become those crazy dog people with 4 dogs and 2 humans in one house...

November 2006 - Injectables/iui - have a heck of a time finding my cervix - Will have a road map for the nurses to follow if we ever do another IUI as that seriously sucked! Find out Meg is pregnant and about to have a coronary - think oh we've got 2 weeks to plan - NOPE Puppies are born and life becomes even more chaotic.

December 2006 - chemical pregnancy... decide to just try on our own with progesterone after ovulation... Chance gets bit - and we spend the worst Christmas of our lives taking care of puppies, a sick puppy and wanting to throw myself under a train with the family visits and drive by pregnancies. Maybe 2007 will be better... I'm not sure that it could be worse.

So lets see we've had 7 injectable cycles, 7 pregnancies, 1 hsg, multiple wandings, multiple blood draws, 1 d/c, 1 IUI, 7 puppies born, 1 puppy dies, 1 geriatric puppy gets bit and spends a holiday weekend making us fret, 4 migraines had just in the month of December...

Ultimately I have my husband, I have all of my dogs (even welfare mom Meg and her 6 puppies) the geriatric dachshund is starting to feel better, D is back on nights for a little while, I still enjoy my job in spite of wishing that all my coworkers were in menopause rather than their "prime" fertility years, and I'm still standing. Whatever the year has thrown at us - we've managed to stay standing and have kept putting one foot in front of the other no matter what the obstacles... May the new year bring less sorrow, less anxiety, and more joy for us as well as for each and every one of you...

5 comments:

Thalia said...

What a tough year, Sami. I'm horrified to see all those chemicals and miscarriages laid out like that. It seems extraordinary that your doctor is keeping on doing the same treatment when it keeps on going wrong for you. Surely they need to look into this further? Karyotypes, clotting factors etc.

OHN said...

Isn't it hard to believe when you list the year out like that? As it is happening you just think "shit, what next?" but when you actually see it in writing, don't you wonder how you have come through all that?? We humans are amazing :) I hope that 2007 brings you much needed happiness.

DD said...

I agree with Thalia: seeing it all laid out like that sucks.

I have to admit that if nothing else, 2006 brought be closer to a lot of people I never would have had the opportunity to meet. Thanks, Sami, for being one of them.

Mandy said...

I think you've easily got my list beat for sucky 2006!

I continue to pray/hope that 2007 will bring a change for the good and a nice, sticky little emby for you and D.

And btw, your post seriously reinforces the fact that I think you're the strongest, most tenacious (or perhaps just stubborn, j/k) person that I know.

DinosaurD said...

Oh I'm so glad that Chance is doing a little better (I'm trusting he's the "geriatric dachshund")
May I just say congratulations on actually getting through 2006 with your sanity intact?
DinoD